Growing pains

I have this big dream. This crazy, life defying dream. It’s magnitude is overwhelming at times.

Recently my shoulders and back are so achy. They are tense all the time. It’s almost like the weight of my commitment is on my shoulders, weighing me down. I’ll be sat there, my big crazy dream in front of me, tears rolling down my face, shoulders around my ears, staring down at my notes and all the work I’ve done so far. My head will be saying “well done, you’ve started something new and now you have no clue what you are doing”. But my heart will be begging me to keep going. It’ll say, “it doesn’t matter if you don’t know now. You will. You got this girl”. 

These are the growing pains. These are the times when I sit in the uncomfortable realisation that everything I want is possible. I can feel my heart engulfing the possibility that I am making a life defying decision to be the best possible person I can be. To help others in their journey and to really make the most of this gift of life that I have been given. 

When I started this project I didn’t know what direction it would go in, where it would lead, if anywhere. A few weeks ago I was explaining what the project was to somebody and I suddenly realised that this is so much bigger than me. Like everything I’ve learnt and been through in the last twenty-three years has led me here. The project has only just begun, its small and fractionally noticed so far, but it’s opening my mind up further and further every day, making me more aware of what I am capable of and the positive changes I can make in the world. So yes. It’s heavy. Its exhausting, and it is lonely and monotonous at times. But it’s real and it’s mine and every time I think about it, I’m kindling the fire that has been set alight in my soul. 

So the only real question to ask is. What makes your soul light up?

If you don’t know what that is yet. Keep exploring, keep venturing to new heights. As long as you are constantly looking, you’ll get there. And for those of you who do know. Do more of that. Every. Single. Day. 

 

Some are born great, some achieve greatness, and some have greatness thrust upon them.

-William Shakespeare 

4 thoughts on “Growing pains

  1. I love your posts so much! They really make me think about how much more I can put into every day of my life and motivate me to achieve my goals.

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  2. Love love love! You can really tell that came from the heart! Beautiful words that touched MY soul! You’re very inspiring! Keep doing what you doing! You got this girl!!!

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